I've been blindsided. I'm feeling horribly, utterly betrayed. I didn't know real people actually acted like this. It's like I landed in a reality show instead of my life.
Here's where it all first went wrong: When I decided, a couple years ago, to try and fit in. I meant it as a growth opportunity. Accepting people with different values and priorities. Getting past that stuff, you know? But also being more like them. Letting their values influence mind. Making choices to let things go that might keep us from being friends.
We've never been friends. People who are friends don't treat each other like that. I should have seen it a long time ago. I'm blindsided because I let myself be blind.